Dissecting the past

I realized now how just one decision can change someone's life ,The gravity  negatively  changes so many life in the past. I know that I broken hearts and lost great people in my life for who I was. Not Who I am know. The thing is that I wish I could tell everyone that been ran over with that diesel truck I once was..and effected there life in a not so good way that I'm sorry and wish I grow up way sooner then I did. I mean I don't some things to people that will stay with them there hole life and I can't change that. But all the hearts I have broke and all the pain I caused was not all for nothing If it was not for all the thing, I  did in the past and pain I cased people I wouldn't be who I am today. I realized that growing up comes with a price in some way yet I wish I didn't just leave people to bleed out in the middle of the round. I've  work very hard to be a good person and make a happy life with the people who mean the most too me. I just feel this need to be said ….I don't regret my choices in my life .I would not be who I am today. I just glad I can be happy with who I am today and my life. I hope all that was hurt found happiness just as much a I have.

Oh Me oh my Marriage in today's world!

I fined it inter standing, How people can't see how to make a relationship work. I mean there key things to have a good relationship yet no one want to try to make there marriages better or make each
anther's life happier or bring life to there world together as one. I mean more the 60 % of  USA getting Divorced because they don't think things throw. People in the UK think we are some of the most stupid people in the world well with a lot of choice we make as American's,  I can understand there point of vow. I mean half the us don't even see the problems we start in are own marriage and do nothing to change it or even care to getting divorced is the all one fix to most people.  Also no one will just come out and say what they mean or tell each other the truth about anything, building a life on lie's and lust and some time money also Power just to please another. It make's me feel like WOW how much are world has gone down hill..I got married because I found my soul mate and love my life. Yet I see all the relationships falling apart right here every day all day. Well all we can do is try to change the world on step at a time. Stay strong People life can ROCK if you really want it. ;) 
Thanks

Slutty Brownies

Found this one day and There awesome 

Slutty Brownies

Yield: 1 9x9 brownie pan

Serving Size: 16 brownies per recipe

Ingredients

For the Brownie layer:

• 10 tbsp unsalted butter
• 1 1/4 cups white sugar
• 3/4 cup cocoa powder
• 1/2 tsp salt
• 2 tsp vanilla extract
• 2 large eggs
• 1/2 cup AP flour

For the Oreo layer:

• 1 package of Oreo (regular stuffed or double stuffed)

For the Cookie Dough layer:

• 1/2 cup unsalted butter (at room temp)
• 1/4 cup brown sugar
• 3/4 cup white sugar
• 1 egg
• 1 1/4 tsp vanilla extract
• 1 1/4 cups AP flour
• 1/2 tsp salt
• 1/2 tsp baking soda
• 1/2 tsp baking powder
• 1 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips

Instructions

1. For the Brownie layer:
2. In a medium sauce pan, melt the butter over medium high heat. Add the sugar and cocoa powder once the butter is melted. Whisk to combine and remove from heat. Add the salt, vanilla and eggs and continuously whisk until the eggs are combined. Add the flour and continue to mix. Set batter aside.
3. For the Cookie Dough layer:
4. Cream together the butter and sugars in a mixer. Add the eggs and vanilla, making sure to scrape down the sides of the mixing bowl. Add the flour, salt, baking soda and baking powder and mix on low until everything is incorporated. Fold in the chocolate chips. Set dough aside.
5. Assembly:
6. Pre-heat the oven to 350 degrees.
7. Line the bottom of a 9x9 baking pan with tin foil and then spray the tin foil with a layer of baking spray.
8. Layer the cookie dough on the bottom of a 9x9 baking pan, pressing down to form the bottom of the slutty brownies.
9. Layer as many oreos that will fit on top of the cookie dough. No need to overlap. One single layer will do.
10. Pour the brownie batter on top of the oreo layer and make sure it's evenly layers on top.
11. Bake for 30-35 minutes. Test with a knife to see if the center is done. If the knife comes out clean, let the brownies rest before serving. If the knife comes out with batter still on it, allow the brownies to bake about 5 minutes more.
12. Serve with ice cream :)
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High & Mighty

Well a lot of people acted high and mighty like there better then everyone else . I mean if you have money that's great for you, if your close to being poor it does not matter. What matter's is who you are, not what you have or look like . Most people look at me and think I'm some bitch or just a rocker chick or drug using person that has next to no brain. I'm different and I speak my mind and will own my fuck ups in life and I'm drug free people yet just by looking different I'm put as a druggy .We should be judged by the person we present are self 's  Not for are tattoos or the why you dresses.   Yet I'm doing good for myself and have a loving husband and I'm in a great BDSM Relationship.  I mean there so much more to people yet no one trying to find out who people are before passing judgement. Have chat first with some one the make your judgements. we are different in are own way. Some of us are not scared to show who were truly are in side and out.

Soup for Brain's

When people call you up and start talking about how there life is going good and keep going on about there self yet . Have not even taken one moment to say oh yea how are u doing. They like to bitch about  this and that yet do nothing to change it. I mean really you ask me what to do. And then it melt's right out of your brain ten minuets later. How hard is to look at the big picture that is in front of your eyes. If you let the dark clouds cover your face then you can't see anything.

  There for you will fail everything. After a while I just want to kick someone in the face and say stop asking for my help if you wont take it. Since you know everything and I know nothing good luck to you with the jackass you road in on. I at lest know when advice is worth take.  "Who am I to know anything right I just let gummy bears lick my brain for 10 years and had tea with my dog just for the hell of it."  "Open your mind and The you can go to place of wonder! " A clouded mind met as well be soup because its not worth more then that. I know your think how dark and sadistic that sound but really think a bit on that. I learn something new everyday how about you?  I can see the panda tap dancing in your head at this very moment and let you know most files have been deleted…what a sad mind in deed.

Well hope that enlightened you

Nothing in this post was personal to anyone I know. Just feel like say it.

Good day

Crystal.